I’ve been exploring spiritually lately. I guess I’ve been dabbling in the New Age but it feels sorta right. Even considering meditation and mala beads would’ve been questionable to me in the past.
I would’ve thought I was going to hell for even considering that. Now, I’m more open-minded. It feels right. It feels comforting.
Wearing my mala bracelet helps me remember to pray and to give thanks throughout the day. Repeating my meditations helps me to focus in on them more.
I freak out because Jesus has always felt somewhat distant to me. I’ve always felt closer to God than to Jesus. So what does that mean? Am I not a Christian? Does that mean I’m going to hell? Is there even a hell?
I’m definitely in a seeking phase in my spiritual walk. I don’t know what the absolute truth is. But I know there is a God. And I will worship the God of Love because God is Love.
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God…” (Romans 8:38-39)